Depressed....

So right now its 12:36am and I'm crying my eyes out. I feel so depressed and my chest is in so much pain. Guess I'm going to cry myself to sleep tonight. I'm thinking about my hometown. I miss those southern states where everyone is so sweet and laid back. Miss the scenery of palm trees and highways. Most of all I miss my friends and family. 2010 my friend from Florida came up with my Aunt when she went on vacation. We because best friends, really close. We legit stayed up all night talking on the phone. He'd call at 9pm and we'd stay on the phone till 6am. I miss those days so much. I was so afraid to loose him. I really did loose him. Months went by, years went by. Before I knew it, we never talked. I don't even remember the last time we talked. During those months and years you really don't think about what goes on or who you loose love with. But when you get the moment when you're alone, you think back on the past. Realize how happy you were, then thinking its crazy what time does. Time makes you forget all that cause you're busy...but one night you're thinking what happened and realize it all changed. And that it'll never come back. It'll never be the same.